When Things are Hard ...

Things are hard. 

Life is hard. 

Sometimes I am convinced that life is much harder for some than for others. 

Sometimes it feels like I can never get a break. 

Sometimes it feels like I will always struggle and things will always be really hard,

and that is just how my life will be. 

I dont know. 

None of this is fact. 

Just feelings. 


Things are hard right now. 

Life is hard right now. Really hard. 

I wish I could go into detail here, but I truly cannot. 

I dont mean to be vague or overdramatic,

but a lot of it is not my story to tell, 

and privacy needs to be a thing right now.


I can only say that I am going through some hard things,

the person I love is going through some really hard things,

there is trauma and anxiety and lots to handle,

and there is a long and unsure road ahead. 


The only thing I am sure of right now is my pure and intense love for my person. 

I love him deeply. 

What will happen next and how this all transpires and how we get through this, 

I have no idea.

But I know we will get through this. 

I know our love and our faith in each other is strong. 

I know that we are so much better,


than apart. 


I just want things to be better.

I wish I could make them better.

I wish life could be easier.

We have both had more than our share of really, really hard. 

I wish we would get a break now. 

But thats not going to happen. 


Here is the good news: 

There are a lot of people who love us.

There are a lot of people who give amazing support. 

Nobody is dying. 

At least not that we know of,

and at least not right now. 

We have today. 

We have each other.

Having each other is the most important thing in the world to me. 

We need to hold on tight 

to each other,

because that is literally everything. 


Love is not hard. 

Life is hard. 

Until it isnt. 

Until we get to the parts that are so damn beautiful and so profound,

we can barely catch our breath. 


I will be waiting, 

for those pieces of life, 

that make all the really hard stuff, 

so very worth it. 



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  • Noreen McCullagh
    commented 2019-06-07 17:28:41 -0700
    My husband and I went through a really challenging part of our love story-we had faith in each other when it seemed hopeless or not something others would want to go through.
    It was hard, it was unfair and it felt like everyone elses’ Love story was perfect and I thought why did we have to walk down such a rocky path.
    We made it through and we were so much stronger when we came to the other side of the tough days and because of that we created a beautiful life and a relationship that others envied….and then I found Camp Widow when he was stolen by cancer.
    Please know I am rooting for you and your love and the strength in your love story!
    I met you both in Tampa and you have a huge cheerleader sending you good thoughts and positive energy.
    If you ever want to talk send me a note(we are connected on FB). Lots of hugs and support headed your way ❤️
  • Don Yacona
    commented 2019-06-07 10:57:16 -0700
    I’m so sorry
  • Gaye Hirz
    commented 2019-06-07 09:13:43 -0700
    Life is hard – something my parents never taught me. But there are always moments even when life is hard, that ease the pain and struggle. Like hugs from family and friends. Like this group where someone with always pipe up and say,”I am here for you!” Like an unexpected phone call or email that reminds you you are loved. Whatever it is, Kelly, we are here for you.