Grief is like a roller-coaster, sometimes you are up and sometimes you are down. There is no actual manual on how to navigate all this. There are resources to help you with it, but everyone deals with things differently.
I feel like this roller-coaster of grief is tricky. I feel like I have made great progress in moving forward with my grief, but I still feel stuck. Before my husband passed away, I always knew what I wanted. I had a good career, I married the man of my dreams, I was blessed with a child, and things seem to be in order in my life. Everything I strived for, I got through hard work and dedication. Then my life blew up, and I just don’t know what direction to take.
As a woman, I feel lost. The life I wanted and lived is gone. I was a person that always thought about the future and had many plans. I don’t dream anymore, I just am. I live each day and what it brings, but I noticed I don’t look forward to things anymore, at least not like I used too. I am on this roller-coaster of grief just riding the dips.