I'm in that lovely crunch time in semester where I have assignments and other assessments coming out of my butt and I seriously question the sanity of going back to school. Ok, I'm always questioning the sanity of that choice!
Which has had me thinking in the last day or so as I worked on cost accounting exercises - would I be doing this if Ian hadn't died?
Initially I thought no.
In 1998/99 I spent a year living and teaching English conversation in Japan.
And up until recently, I would describe that year in many ways as 'existing', not 'living'. But in retrospect, I had something resembling a life there, not a great one, but I was engaged socially with the expat community.
Now at home, as a widow, I really find I'm in a period of 'existing', not living.
I'm disconnected and disengaged from uni - it's so easy to think 'I'll catch up with that lecture on line' and stay home. And have I caught up ... of course not.Read more