Sharon Wall

  • commented on The Landscape of Love after Love 2016-04-03 22:43:17 -0700
    What a beautiful post, Sarah. Like you said – this shit isn’t easy. Nope. Sometime I also long for the familiar, including the things that pissed me off about Brian – like always leaving a couple of hours later than “I” planned because he thought he was ready to go but really had 25 things he still HAD to do. I too was always the planner in our relationship and, in this new relationship I’m needing to let go of some of that because I’m spending time in the world he knows. Fun, but different, and yes – part of learning to love after love.

  • commented on My Life With Grief 2016-03-31 17:17:58 -0700
    Geez, Stephanie! You did it again! Every post you write I say to myself – this is exactly how it is for me!!

  • commented on Visiting with Old Memories 2016-03-13 09:38:42 -0700
    What a beautiful post, Rebecca! I love how you describe visiting the happy memories.

  • commented on Familiar Roads 2016-02-26 18:39:10 -0800
    As always, thank you for your post, Kelley. I’m in kind of a similar place and it’s great to hear your perspective on the unexpected new directions in which our lives moving (and yours too, Stephanie). It’s fun and exciting, triggers all kinds of stuff and some days makes me miss the familiarity Brian and I developed over the years. I wish only good things for you as your after life continues to unfold.

  • commented on Validating my Truth 2016-02-08 21:11:43 -0800
    I’m so glad you connected with your sensitive, wise colleague. I’ve been experiencing the same thing. Very few people, including close friends, say Brian’s name unless I mention it first, and even then, lots of people seem uncomfortable. Sigh… It’s not like I’m going to forget he died. HELLO!! He will always be important and I will always find comfort in talking to others about him – as you will with Dan.

  • commented on "The Change"... Not "The End" 2016-02-08 20:38:10 -0800
    I love your post, Sarah. It was such a treat to see you and Mike enjoying each other together in Toronto in Sept.

  • commented on Jumble 2016-01-29 21:55:31 -0800
    Absolutely. I’m there with you in this confusing, jumbled mess. I could not have imagined this world a couple of years ago.

  • commented on Ahhh...Life.... 2016-01-13 21:38:14 -0800
    I’m in the coffin too – I know what you mean. The me I knew died with Brian. I didn’t want to live. The pain isn’t so raw now 19 months later, but I still don’t know who I am in this after life although I’m slowly figuring things out. Thank you for you eloquent post.

  • commented on Happy New Year 2016-01-05 20:59:43 -0800
    I couldn’t agree more with everything Stephanie said. Enjoy what you have, with ot without complications.

  • commented on Setting my Goal for 2016 2016-01-02 20:26:19 -0800
    Growth – what a great mantra for 2016 especially with what you’ve been through. You’re an inspiration, Rebecca. I’ve never set a goal for an upcoming year until now, but for 2016 I’ve chosen grounded – whatever I do I want to do it from a place of being grounded. And isn’t Camp Widow amazing??

  • commented on Stars and the Universe in Jerome~ 2016-01-02 20:19:11 -0800
    I love the black hermatite ring and the black heart – it’s perfect! And I love Jerome – I remember being the passenger on the back of Brian’s bike riding through Jerome in 2005 – terrifying and exhilarating, like the road was hanging off the mountainside. Year 2 and I also did all that was expected of me during the Christmas season and didn’t much care about any of it. I’m also glad it’s over because it’s certainly not what it was.

  • commented on Hopefully in Time 2015-12-26 22:53:18 -0800
    Yes – all of that. This was the second Christmas and I agree with all that you wrote. Thank you, cuz I was kind of feeling like I was losing my mind.

  • commented on Holy...What is~ 2015-12-04 18:38:15 -0800
    What a beautiful tribute to the love you and Chuck share. Thank you. I think I will make my own list now.

  • commented on Nobody Else Can Die 2015-12-04 13:09:14 -0800
    It’s not drivel, Kelley Lynne! I’ve played lots of those same tapes in my head. Life and death are not fair and it sucks! Hugs to you!

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  • commented on Thanksgiving Blues 2015-11-26 22:15:14 -0800
    That damn roller coaster we all know so well.

  • commented on Echo 2015-11-20 08:52:00 -0800
    Absolutely, Kelley Lynn! All of it. I so valued Brian’s understanding and analysis of what was going on in the world. There is such a void where his voice used to be.

  • commented on Fearing Healing 2015-11-11 19:41:08 -0800
    Once again, Michele you’ve nailed it. There is nothing else to be said.

  • commented on Exit Ramp 2015-11-11 19:39:22 -0800
    Two things struck me about your post – I know that “kicked in the gut” feeling of driving by the hospital where Meaghan died. I have that same experience when I drive by the hospital where my husband died 18 month ago, or even when I’m driving on part of the route I always used to take to the hospital. For a long time I avoided particular intersections so I didn’t have to experience that feeling.

    I love your analogy of life as a road, with beautiful stretches where we set the cruise control and just go, the slower, tougher parts and the times when we look in the rear view mirror and see where we’ve come from. So true.

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

  • commented on This Ringing 2015-10-23 16:28:20 -0700
    A few months ago I would have also described the things I’m doing like travel and social engagements and meeting new people as distractions. I was doing lots and finding little meaning in much of it. That has changed – now I’m looking forward more than back with anticipation and even excitement. Even how I experience triggers has changed – lately I’ve found the triggers and the remembering to be comforting. I like this. It’s so much better than where I was a few months ago. I’m not kidding myself – I know it’s all “subject to change”, but like you, Stephanie, I’m having times where I think I’m figuring this thing out even though I never wanted to have to do that. And I also have an iPod full of music I can’t listen to – I’ve charged the iPod a few times and then put it back in the drawer.

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