Mary Turek

  • commented on First Year as a Widow 2019-11-06 06:36:16 -0800
    Well, 10 months today and sometimes I feel like I did on the day and weeks following, then others I can get out of bed and accept the reality of what has happened. But I try to do what Frank would want me too and be proud of what I have accomplished. I have come a long way. I am not the person I was, and never will be. I will find my way forward soon.

  • commented on My Aliveness 2019-10-20 07:48:20 -0700
    I read this with tears streaming down, replacing Mike with Frank. It’s only been 9 months for me, and most times I can’t breathe normally, or remember what I’m to do each day. Maybe year 4 I too can come around and think of me. This is beautifully written and I thank you.

  • commented on A New Word... 2019-09-20 06:31:39 -0700
    I hate being called a widow. That’s not me, that’s my mother. Truth is, I am. In reality, I liked being a wife, and identified as being a wife. That day in the military office getting my benefits as a survivor, and my ID card no longer identified me as a dependent, but a survivor, took my identity away from me. But you know what, I will survive this new life of hell without Frank. If nothing, 35 years together, and now 8 months apart, has taught me to be strong. Not always, but willing to try. I have too, it’s what Frank wants me too.

  • commented on Further Away 2019-09-11 17:32:00 -0700
    I will never let go. I feel like I’m back at stage 1 when I was told “there was nothing more we could do”. I have never been so lonely. Frank’s family has nothing to do with me, we were together one week short of 35 years. Where did the time go? We had no children, but I’m going to keep his memory alive, if just for me. Thank you.

  • commented on The Stress of Being Stressed 2019-08-30 18:52:43 -0700
    Oh I understand, making decisions that I wonder if they are right for me, would this be what Frank would do? It’s so hard now on my own, I will never get used to this. And it’s only been 8 months