Kelley Lynn donated 2018-10-08 12:34:50 -0700
Kelley Lynn commented on Fire and Rain and Huge Grief Triggers 2018-07-06 19:26:41 -0700Johan, 15 years later, are the grief triggers still there??? Im guessing the answer is YES.
Kelley Lynn commented on PRESSURE 2018-05-29 07:15:46 -0700Hi Linda! And thank you! Yes of course. The book will be available through Amazon once its finished. I will let everyone know!!!
Kelley Lynn commented on The Last Dance 2018-04-10 08:05:59 -0700Dammit Mike. I was fine until that last sentence.
You always get me with the crying…….
ps dry bologna sandwiches sound nasty. They need to do better for the dads!
Kelley Lynn commented on Coffee with Missing Pieces 2018-03-16 09:04:38 -0700Oh man, I totally wish I could hug you in a creepy manner right now, and call you mommy LOL. I don’t know what its like to lose your mom so young in life, or to go through adulthood without your mom or dad – I don’t know what that is – but your beautiful and honest writings about it, have certainly helped me to better understand that feeling of nervousness , of feeling ungrounded. I DO understand so well about hearing a word, such as “mom”, in normal conversation, and having it just wound you, and shine a light on the thing you will never have. I love you, mommy – and I think youre a courageous person. I so wish I could see you next week, and I know that you are wishing that too. xoxo
Kelley Lynn commented on Maturity Rising 2018-03-16 08:56:19 -0700I love everything about this Mike. You are a good day. You are letting your daughter grow up to be a person with her own thoughts and feelings, while allowing her to ask the sometimes hard or unanswerable questions, that might surely come up.
Kelley Lynn commented on Its Your Birthday, My Heart and Back Know 2018-03-16 08:48:57 -0700INDIE – I am sorry you haven’t found that door yet, the one that will make you feel as if you aren’t just simply existing – but actually living again. I can only tell you it took me 6 years to find that feeling, and still now, its very hard some days. I fight for my joy everyday. Its never easy. I hope you wont give up on yourself. When youre exhausted, take breaks. Take emotional breaks to zone out, think about something else, see a funny movie. Then come back to it when you can handle it more. You can reach out to me anytime also. Here. On Facebook, or at my email email@example.com For real. Please don’t give up.
Kelley Lynn commented on Home & The Heart 2018-03-16 08:30:08 -0700Finally have somet ime to catchup on blogs. Love this. And I wish that Don could read it, as crazy as that sounds. He and you have so much in common, and he never stopped missing Florida.
Kelley Lynn commented on Half Life 2018-03-16 08:24:32 -0700Finally have time to sit and read through some of these blogs. I like this one. ANd I get it. I relate. Also, what exactly would a tragic mayonnaise accident look like? Never mind. I don’t want to know.
Kelley Lynn commented on 100% Chance of Rain 2018-02-23 06:23:41 -0800Love this . Ben feeling similar lately. Im 46 – the same age Don was when he suddenly died with no symptoms. Im petrified I wont make it to 47, and I hate even talking about it . Ugh. And like you, I resent it. xoxo
Kelley Lynn commented on Number Eleven 2018-02-23 06:20:05 -0800THis is really beautiful and bittersweet, sounds like you did an amazing job at not being an embarassing dad lol
Kelley Lynn commented on Flowers, Cake, and Change 2018-01-21 20:16:56 -0800thank you carol. Your words are very kind xoxo
Kelley Lynn commented on The End is Lurking 2018-02-26 13:08:00 -0800I think that all the time. “does he know that he died?” ugh.
Kelley Lynn commented on Happy Birthday to Michele, just one L ... 2017-12-30 16:33:51 -0800Kim, Im so sorry. Try to breathe. Hang on. And I will for sure give you a big hug in March.
Thank you Candace and Staci. I believe this too, that we all have this bit of magic in us.
Oh, the sadness of October.
My wedding anniversary.
Followed by our honeymoon anniversary,
just days later,
and then Don's birthday, just days into that.
October 27th we married.
Its toward the end of the month,
and its true what they say.
The build-up to these milestone days,
is often worse than the actual day itself.
But then again,
the actual day itself
is , for me, just heart-wrenchingly sad.
There are no triggers. No panic. No anger or hysterical sobs.
Just intense and very real sadness.
The kind of sadness that sits in silence by the ocean,
listening quietly to the waves, as they swish by one by one by one.
It's the kind of sadness that not many understand.
It has no drama, and would be boring to describe in a movie about grief.
This sadness makes me feel the need to put a pause on life ,
just for a little while. A few hours. A day or two maybe. If possible.
I need to just sit with the idea that my husband is no longer my husband,
but a cherished time and memory. An inspiring thought. A dream unrealized or
He is the man who loved me first, and who changed me forever.
He died loving me, and I will have his whole heart forever.
There is a sad comfort that lives in that knowledge.Read more