Ghostly Conversations~

Your blue eyes are entrancing...

You say to me.

I love casting my blue eyes across a room and catching your green-eyed glance.

You are the Love of my life, Sunshine...

You write to me on a card tucked into the flowers you gift me.

I shine so brightly for you.

You are always in my heart and I love you with all that I am...

Your words on a card from many years ago.

And I find that poem in your wallet after you die.

I read it at your memorial service.

The words echo strongly in my heart and keep it beating in this life after.

You are a shining example to me in how you dig in your heels and get on with life no matter the circumstances...

Written from you to me at a time we're dealing with blending our families.

I read those words again and know that I've dug my heels in again, in these years since your death, stubbornly clinging to the Love you left behind for me.

I am so in love with you...

On a piece of scrap paper tucked into our Love notes journal. The paper is wrinkled and the words a bit faded. It was typed a long time ago.

Oh, my dearest D, I am so in Love with you! Still. Always. Even though you've been dead for 6 1/2 years. I still love you. I'm still in love with you. What do I do with that now? All this Love and you aren't here. I hate it. 

You quoted St Thomas Aquinas to me, and I hold onto those words now, as I navigate this life without you, because I know you believed them. God, I hold onto them so tightly...

Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above it's strength, pleads no excuse of impossibility. It is therefore able to undertake all things...

This world is not my home. I'm just passing through...

Love is not quieted by the death of a loved one. 

These ragged pieces of paper, yellowed by time, still nestle inside your wallet that rests on my bedside table.

In this life, as I travel the roads alone now, gazing out at vistas that brought such light to my blue eyes and your green ones...I shout my Love for you to the Universe. 

My dearest D, you are my all. Always.

I miss you. 

Your words, your Love for me, are etched into my heart, carried with me every moment.

I love you beyond all that is seen and unseen~


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  • Adele Aldrich
    commented 2019-11-03 17:05:26 -0800
    I feel the same way. My Tim has been gone 13 months.
  • indie
    commented 2019-10-25 21:11:35 -0700
    Bless you for expressing the depth of love.

    I have still not quieted the restlessness in my soul after years of bearing the drudgery of life without my love. I am so ready to leave no matter the strength I show to all now. Just tired.