A Grief Timeline?

4_19_10.jpgThe day Phil died I had no idea what kind of roller coaster ride I was about to board. In many ways I felt I was shuffled onto the first outgoing cart marked "grief," and told to put my lap belt on low and tight. Maybe I would have managed the twists and turns of the journey better if someone handed me a grief timeline that mapped out the course that lay ahead. 

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Day 365

4_18_10.JPGToday
was
a
beautiful day.
I am
here.

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Your Final Moments

4_17_10.jpgWhen I came across the excerpt below, it made me not only reflect on what may flash before my eyes in those final moments, but comforted me in knowing that what flashed before my husband's eyes when that time came. A life he enjoyed watching.

So here's to us...and our journey to enjoy the ride, and when the time comes...our final moments...

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Dating help from Jeff

4_16_10.jpgI have realized through my recent, brief and unsuccessful foray into the world of widowed dating that I am most definitely not looking for Jeff. It is not that I am measuring how certain men stand up to the man that Jeff was. It's that I am looking at them through not only my eyes, but Jeff's as well.

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more birthday

4_15_10.jpgtwo saturdays ago,

a whole bunch

of people

came together to 

celebrate madeline’s 

first birthday.

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Time in a Bottle ....

4_14_10.jpegI found myself thinking about time recently. About time with Jim.

Past time.

I thought that I wish I could have bottled up certain times in our life together so that I'd still have them.

The bottles would sit up on the shelves along with our photo albums.

Any time that I found myself missing him (and when did I not?) I could open up a bottle, take a deep breath of its aroma, and go back to that time.

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Time to Be

4_13_10.jpgI had some time this weekend - me time. Me and Michele time if I'm completely truthful, but it was me time just the same. A couple of days with no cares in the world.


This weekend it all came together. A sudden realization that the opportunity was there and so was the free airline ticket. 

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I'm OK?

4_11_10.JPGToday looked like this....

I got up.

I laughed before the big toe of my left foot hit the floor.

I left at 8:15 for an 8:30 class that was a 20 minute drive away.

I drove giggling...my lateness, some things never change.

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Ain't No Love

Ever since TT and I went to the David Gray concert,
I've become more consumed in his lyrics and songs.
This song is one of them (as it played we both looked at each other like "what is this?! I love it!")

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turning tables

4_9_10.jpgI'm sure that every widow/er has done it....Wondered if their spouse would have 'managed' had the tables been turned. Pondered over the differences that their loss would have created rather than their spouse's.

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