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  • commented on Finding A Balance ...... 2019-02-21 18:25:07 -0800
    A widow of five months’ after a long term’ by gone days’ traditional type romantic fulfilling marriage’ for sure I am in that “deep dark cold grief cave” –
    Soaring Spirits Widow’s Voice has become my private therapist and my floating jacket’ in these sorrowful days of crying and weeping in private’ in secret’ as not to worry our two sons and add more concern to their daily responsibilities’
    So grateful to each contributor’ who so honestly and touchingly and with deep emotion share their own heartbreaking grief story’ making me feel understood ’ not alone and not abandoned ’ in this unfamiliar territory of not being a couple anymore’ not being a loving pair anymore’ simply left as one ’

    Laura

  • commented on Love, Food and Grief 2019-02-19 21:15:57 -0800
    “It is disturbing that I miss someone so much …” Rings so true’ exactly where I am now on the grief scale ’
    A recent widow’ the last few years was also the caregiver for my husband ’ due to his progressing deterioration of Parkinson’s disease’
    Though the clues were there’ that he was last stage Parkinson’ becoming paralysed followed by aspiration pneumonia’ but his death STIll IS TERRIBLY TERRIBLY HEARTBREAKING AND TERRIBLY DIFFICULT to continue on alone’ just me’ not a pair anymore’ not a couple anymore’ feeling lost’ empty’ purposeless’ without any sense of direction’
    Grateful for this unique group of Widow’s Voice bloggers’ their shared grief stories does make me feel less alone and less abandoned’ as in y circle of friends – relatives’ none can relate to this tough transition of widowhood ’

    Laura

  • commented on Dance Class 2019-02-14 17:46:09 -0800
    Aaaaaakh and Aaaaakh ! Dearest Kelly’ With your vocabulary’ You paint such a true ’ touching ’ terribly intimate scenes of a widow’s world’ encountering each day with her heavy and broken heart ’ while most don’t care or understand or relate’
    A recent widow’ each blog talks to me in such detail’ and makes me feel supported and not abandoned in " widowland " ’
    Grateful for you and your fellow bloggers of Widow’s Voice ’

    Laura

  • commented on Sunshine and Roses. Not~ 2019-02-10 17:37:06 -0800
    Dearest Allison’ Your words ’ and clear expressions go directly to the heart ’ to the core of what widowed life is – " emotionally lonely’ an emotional wasteland’ with a soul deep ache of missing him "…
    A widow of four months’ for sure – " it ain’t sunshine and roses’ no matter how we try to dress it up " –
    Weeping and hurting of suddenly facing my days without my husband’ suddenly not being a pair anymore ’ as someone quoted ’ – " All the days are the same now ’ they begin and end without him " …

    Laura

  • commented on It's Simple, Really~ 2019-02-07 17:38:43 -0800
    Oh’ that "pressures " paragraph is so true’ as if adding salt to the wound’
    It is already tough enough to overnight lose your couple’ to be unpaired in a blink of an eye’ and face this new reality of widowhood…
    Indeed a very difficult and heartbreaking transition ’ just somehow managing to go through by that continuous Love bond and by Divine Grace …

    Laura

  • commented on Sympathy Pains 2019-02-05 14:46:04 -0800
    What an appropriate term “Sympathy Pains” … After my husband’s death I also went through physical pains’ in the chest ’ in my stomach’ on my legs’ the doctor’s diagnosis was emotional exhaustion’
    My husband died due to complications of Parkinson’s causing dysphagia and aspiration pneumonia’ for a long time’ I was so conscious and fearful of my swallowing’ that anytime some tiny particle of food or juice or a pill could be aspired to my lungs too’
    Your posts about your grief story are so touching and so close to the reality of a widow’s new life ‘going on all alone on the path of widowhood’ without their loving life partner’

    Laura

  • commented on Stranger in the Room 2019-02-05 11:57:08 -0800
    " I was a stranger in a familiar crowd " … Only a few words’ yet it paints such a heartbreaking scene’ and all those emotions that we are forced to suppress in that familiar crowd’ specially seeing them go on in lively conversations’ and enjoying each other’s presence ’ emphasizing our oddness of being there not as a couple as before’
    A recent widow’ your story so resonates with me ’

    Laura

  • commented on I am Different than Who you Loved 2019-02-05 08:42:29 -0800
    Dearest Staci’ Oh how you find those exact words to profoundly characterise and depict such emotional scenes that talk to a widow’s grieving heart ….’
    Erupted weeping after reading these two lines’ –
    " But, now your eyes can’t pour over me the way they used to’
    " Now, there’s nothingness where your loving gaze once was " –
    Indeed this widow life is so multifaceted and so difficult to adjust and go on without our life partner’ without the other half of our couple ’

    Laura

  • commented on The Forgotten 2019-02-05 08:03:30 -0800
    A widow of four months’ This a very relatable subject’ expressed with such clarity’
    As in one of the posts it was explained so well’ – This loss of your loved one changed YOU’ but not them’ it changed YOUR world’ but not theirs’ YOU are not the previous YOU they knew’ so now the compatibility of the relationship you had is not the same – And in one post the term " Widowland" says it all’ we are in “widowland” and they’re not ’ consequently our circle of friends-relatives can not be as understanding as we expect of our day to day new reality ’

    Laura

  • commented on Lifelines 2019-02-04 20:48:56 -0800
    THANK YOU Again and Again’ dear Staci’ for these profoundly emotional posts of your grief story’ and describing in such sincerity from your heart all those intense emotional’ mental and physical upheavals that happen to the widowed’
    Four months into widowhood’ I so feel the support and find comfort in reading yours and your fellow writers personal grief experiences ’ and how truly each widow story resonates with me’ reassuring that I’m not alone and abandoned in this unfamiliar and strange new reality’

    Laura

  • commented on Superbowl Sunday and a Brand New Life 2019-02-03 18:59:00 -0800
    Again’ such to the point’ clear, emotional and touching description of the new world of a widow ….
    Thank you for not making me feel alone and abandoned ’ during my recent transition to widowhood …

    Laura

  • commented on Fire and Rain and Huge Grief Triggers 2019-01-23 17:25:55 -0800
    As always’ touchingly described what’s hidden on this widow path’ and how suddenly’ unexpectedly it hits us ….
    A recent widow ’ I am so blessed to have found Soaring Spirits community’ each article has something I can relate to …
    My beloved husband liked art and music’ specially the songs of Charles Aznavour and Fred Astaire – Ginger Rogers movies …
    Now I just can’t handle those triggers’ they emphasize me being without him’ being alone’ no more the other half of that loving’ romantic couple’ being “half a couple” … after a few seconds I cry and weep proufoundly …

    Laura

  • commented on Me, My Daughter and My Anger 2019-01-21 17:25:13 -0800
    Ahhhh’ all these inappropriate remarks and assumptions from our circle of friends and relatives is quite hard to hear and keep calm ….
    As I read in an article ’ unless they are in “widowland” or “widowerland” they are not able to relate and understand that deep grief and that unplanned transition from being a couple ’ a loving pair to just one’ and that confused feeling of where did our other half disappear to forever ….

    Courage to you dear fellow griever …. The road ahead will not be easy’ but for your Anisha’s sake ’ your daddy love for her will conquer the challenges through the emotional upheavals

    Laura

  • commented on Back to the Future 2019-01-13 15:44:40 -0800
    Though I’m at the stage of " guilt’ shame’ sadness’ remorse’ loneliness’ confusion "and daily weeping and crying profoundly’ somehow your emotionally packed grief experience ’ from a “back to the future” point of view had a calming effect ….
    I recently transitioned to widowhood’ becoming a non couple after 44 years of a committed and loving marriage’ losing my husband due to last stage Parkinson’ followed by paralization and aspiration pneumonia .
    These posts of shared grief experiences have become my daily therapy’ since in my circle of friends and relatives’ nobody can relate to the upheavals of this strange reality of my new status of a widow …

    Laura

  • commented on Wandering~ 2019-01-12 19:09:34 -0800
    Such honest and clear description of " Widowland " , and all that entails’ emotionally’ physically ’ mentally …
    I so needed this ’ being a widow of 3 months’ after 44 years of marriage, and nobody close enough to share or understand this terrible transition to this unfamiliar territory of widowhood’ and of suddenly not being the other half of a loving couple anymore …

    Laura

  • commented on Aftermath 2019-01-12 14:39:42 -0800
    So very relatable emotions dearest Sarah and Anonymous’ … " My brain can no longer be logical ". . . " For those of us who are sentimental – ( plus romantic and nostalgic ) – there is a continual grieving OVER EVERYTHING that changes and disappears " …

    Being a recent widow after 44 years of loving and days gone by marriage’ Soaring Spirit’s each unique writer’s shared experience has become my refuge and sanity savior’ ……

    Laura

  • commented on If I could Back Up 2019-01-05 12:03:00 -0800
    Oh Wowwww dear Staci’ ! ! ! All these – If I Could-s ’ I Would-s – made me weep and cry and took me back ’ like a video cassette rewinding through my memory lane of love and marriage story’ . . . Soooo relating to each sentence’ each sentiment you so clearly and fondly and lovingly express … Thank You so much for so honestly and openly sharing your widowhood experience and making me not to feel abandoned and alone in my grief . . . – Laura – . . .

  • commented on One Word 2018-12-30 19:11:55 -0800
    " Grace fills my heart and soul " – “Grace and Love sees me through my days and my nights without him” – Somehow today’s blog had a calming effect’ you so well narrate all you’re experiences and how you’ve managed through and also have mapped a way for me to follow this path of widowhood by GRACE….

  • commented on I Got Nothin'~ 2018-12-30 17:57:03 -0800
    Thank You dearest Alison for such an honest and transparent ’ tough and yet emotional way of explanation of the world of widowhood’ … " It’s a landscape puddled with land mines’ and Cat 5 hurricane forces the likes of which leave me spinning and out of breath " … Having joined this widowhood world recently’ I so felt alone and misunderstood and abandoned by my circle of family and friends’ their approach being’ since my husband was ill and his health was deteriorating continuously due to Parkinson’s I should recover quickly from my grief and sadness … Grateful for this exceptional group of Soaring Spirits and Widow’s Voice … – Laura – ….

  • commented on Stars and the Universe in Jerome~ 2018-12-30 17:25:50 -0800
    Oh Wow !!! … " I count the anniversary of his death as my new year " … such real and true description of the world of widowhood’ that nobody in my family-friend circle could relate and share … Thank You for writing this blog’ even if you had nothing to write ’ you were my therapy today …. – Laura -