commented on Back to Basics
2015-06-27 20:43:28 -0700
I lost my husband of 5 years almost 3 months ago. I already feel like everyone around me seems to have gone back to business as usual. I try to keep a routine with work and taking care of our son but I really don’t want a routine. Marcus hated routine. It just seems like everyone expects you to be able to get back into the swing of things. I can barely manage but I don’t really let on to anyone. I have always been a strong person and I feel like I have to keep up the charade to keep my job and help my son through this the best i can. I just can’t seem to get past why this has happened. I feel like I need to understand and I just don’t especially since at this point we still don’t have a cause of death. I just wish it was more accepted for us to not be back to normal now or ever.