I have a lot going on right now and I am feeling extremely stressed out. Life in general is not going well for my youngest daughter, and in order to help her cope I have decided to leave work and stay home with her for her second semester of school this year. Also, I have just found out that I require surgery on Dec 7th which will take me out of commission for awhile (not to mention I am scared shitless of having the surgery), and I am panicked as to how I will prepare for Christmas around this surgery. I just can't seem to get it together, and the looming Christmas season isn't really helping. Christmas #2 without Ben.
In any case, I'm just going to be straight up honest and tell you all that I can't cope with writing a new blog post this week, but I am going to post something that I wrote at the end of November 2015. When Christmas was looming and I was really stressed out. I guess November does that for me. I feel essentially the same today, except Ben was alive back then and I could still see him and touch him and hear him, even if he was mostly sleeping. So life may have actually been better back then.Read more
I know the holidays are way over, but I wanted to share a Christmas experience I had with my children, when we lit a candle in remembrance of Lisa.
On Christmas Eve, I always let the girls open a couple of gifts as a way to get Christmas started – truth be told, I basically get the night off as they are busy playing with new toys. It’s a win win for both the girls and me. This year, I sit them in a circle with their gifts to my left. I pull out the candle and let them know that tonight we will be starting the holidays by lighting this candle to symbolize mom. The holiday music behind us sets the perfect tone as Bing Crosby croons "Silent Night".Read more