I feel as if I’m living life with each foot in a different world. One is still firmly planted in the life I shared with Mike. The imprint, not just of Mike himself, but of the life we had together, the World of Mike and Steph, is always there. I never stop wondering what we would be doing now were he still alive…I never stop referring to him, either out loud or just to myself, in regards to so many little situations that arise…oh Mike would have said this, or thought that. And all the little pieces of him around me…pictures, a few of his belongings…simply being in the house we shared together, the dishes he used, the appliances he bought…a memory erupts every time I touch one. The old world comes surging back and I can’t stop it.
The other day I went into Sports Authority looking for something - it’s not a store I need to go to very often but it was one of Mike’s favorites. He was so excited when we heard a big sports store was coming to our little island town all those years ago. As I was walking around I was hit with a flood of memories of being in there with him. I was totally not prepared for it. I was so focused on the task at hand and crossing my errands off my list.