Stephanie Vendrell

Grown Up Problems

Mike was never good at dealing with grown up problems. He truly did have a childlike spirit - that was sometimes fun, and sometimes frustrating. When it came to taxes, phone calls, fixing things, filling out forms, and bigger worries, he was often useless. I did most of all that. And when he died...well, widowed people understand all the bureaucracy and agonizing paperwork that must be completed. It never seems to end. One final time he had left me to sort it out alone.


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  • commented on Grown Up Problems 2017-03-23 13:54:29 -0700
    Me too Lisa!

  • commented on Location, Location, Location 2017-02-24 13:45:29 -0800
    Wow Cathy – on top of everything else, the adoption thing being in common in our lives, thank you for sharing that. And I hope to continue moving forward, yes, so many decisions. I hope my adventures lend strength to some, and I appreciate the sharing as well in return, it brings me strength too.

  • commented on The Path Less Traveled 2017-02-08 14:32:23 -0800
    Thanks Cathy – good to have the shared experience, and advice – and the idea that it gets easier. I guess I will eventually perfect the introductory info in a way that is dealable for me. Xoxo

  • commented on Limbo Girl 2017-01-27 06:28:19 -0800
    Cathy, I so appreciate your sentiment of difficulty when people ask your plans. In this time of our lives, after our losses, we have learned that what we plan often doesn’t happen. But other people have yet to learn it. And yes I am amazed this is my life too. Thank you for your continued presence and support.xoxo

  • commented on Overload 2017-01-25 06:37:05 -0800
    Congratulations on everything you are doing Kelley, and thank you, because your words will reach a lot of people who will benefit greatly. For me, writing about grief has been often difficult, and always also comforting, and cathartic. And I share your love affair with words, as well as the occasional feeling of being overwhelmed, and at a loss. I know you have a lot of followers here and elsewhere and we look forward to reading and sharing with you.

  • commented on Life speed bumps 2017-01-25 06:30:06 -0800
    I remember crying at the DMV too…I also cried at the bank dealing with his name on accounts there. I remember the people looking at me with confusion as well, but, apparently there are quite a few of us who react like this. Hugs to you Michelle.

  • commented on Another Runner Up? 2017-01-21 22:45:21 -0800
    Me too, Sharon. Man. Me too. Thank you.

  • commented on Felt Like Goodbye 2017-01-16 18:18:50 -0800
    Oh God, Kelley. What a thing to happen…I am so glad you had found her, and had that chance to tell her what you did…so many of us never get that chance, and thank God she is alive. Such big changes for all of us, never-ending f-ing changes. I think about you in your move this year. Sending love and hugs.

  • commented on Runner Up 2017-01-16 18:13:13 -0800
    Good comment, Gayle – that was then, this is now…wish non-widowed could see that too. Our loves are gone but that shouldn’t mean we don’t get other loves. It will never be the same though, and maybe some people are just more sensitive to that. Michelle, I am so sorry he said that. I have been going through that with my boyfriend too. I’m not sure where to go with it yet to be honest. Hugs.

  • commented on Permanent Markers 2017-01-17 08:12:10 -0800
    Oh, Indie, it is just so hard to know what to do. I think keeping things until you find reason to, or feeling to, change that, is not only ok but perhaps what needs to be. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing.

  • commented on A Choiceless Event 2017-01-06 08:50:09 -0800
    Oh my gosh Marilyn, thank you for your comment. It made me cry. “My eyes are his eyes now” – that is exactly how I feel, and what a beautiful way to put it. I wonder sometimes whether what is going on with my life now will resonate here, so your reaction is precious to me. Many blessings to you, and hugs. We are in this together, hard as it all is.

  • commented on Ashes and Tears 2016-12-31 14:24:19 -0800
    I know Lisa, I shudder too. So here’s to peace, indeed.
    And I sure get that, Cathy – now we know what it means. Letting go can be so hard.
    Sharon, what a hard year for you, I am so sorry. I am glad you are doing better though…strange how we become “good” at grief somehow, maybe that’s not the right way to put it, experienced maybe. Sad, but probably true. I do think of our loved ones rocking out up there, I hope. Happy new year to you all, hope we can all find some peace. Hugs all around.

  • commented on The People Who Stay 2016-12-24 07:58:34 -0800
    Barbara, indeed they do, thank you and best to you.
    Cathy, I know, right? Like people don’t think sometimes. Sigh. Hugs for 2017.
    Kelly, Oh my dear I am so sorry for your loss. The initial shock and grief is the hardest, I will be holding you close to my heart. Glad you found us here.
    Sharon, glad you can be with mom this holiday, as I am, even with so little to celebrate. Sending love to you both too.

  • commented on Leaving 2016-12-17 19:52:22 -0800
    You are indeed blessed to have such a wonderful and supportive family. It means everything in these difficult times. I wish you safe journey. It seems widowhood brings many of us to this point of moving change. Bittersweet, yes.

  • commented on A Few Steps 2016-12-17 18:49:10 -0800
    Thanks Cathy. I appreciate the warm thoughts very much.

  • commented on Home Is Not a House 2016-12-09 01:47:30 -0800
    Lisa, thank you for sharing, it helps so much to know I am not alone in this ongoing process of finding peace in a sea of change. Hugs.

  • commented on I have to go home 2016-11-25 14:58:42 -0800
    Thank you everyone. I receive all the hugs and support. xoxo

  • commented on A Slice of Hope 2016-11-12 19:28:50 -0800
    Love this. Thank you for sharing.

  • commented on A Quiet Moment 2016-11-11 16:29:09 -0800
    Lisa, thank you for your advice and support, from the bottom of my heart.
    Patricia, you are right…our medical system has a lot of changes to make, I hope, in the future, to evolve towards what we as humans really need and deserve. It’s certainly not this for-profit dismissive system the way it is now. Thank you for your thoughts and support.
    Cathy, yes, I am so glad I can be here now. I think often how, if I could still have it that way, I would be with Mike, helping him, but, he is not here, and so, I can be here. Weird how things work out. I hope you’re right, that we will find the best answer. But it is hard digging. Aloha to you all.

  • commented on D-Day 2016-11-06 03:43:39 -0800
    Oh Sharon, thank you so, so so much. I read, consider and feel every comment, every commonality, ever sentiment and it all matters. I’m going to try and stay as long as feels right, and then, yes, it’s a date, though I imagine it will probably be wine…or martinis lol…

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