Kelly Carby commented on Who Am I ? 2017-12-13 04:32:44 -0800Thank you for sharing your story. It was beautiful. I became a widow on May 26, 2017 when I lost my husband to cancer. It was actually a shock to me and the family because we were under the impression that he was beating the cancer. His cancer had metastasized to his liver. Three years prior to that he was diagnosed with colon cancer., And I guess the outcome of the colon cancer had much better chances than the outcome of metastasize liver cancer.
I am in a mentally weird place right now. I feel like with the loss of my husband that I don’t fit in anywhere. There so many couples doing so many things. Especially around the Christmas time of year. There are Christmas parties, there are activities going on, but I have been isolating and not wanting to really get out of the house much. The only time I really leave is to go the grocery store and to take my 13-year-old daughter to school and pick her up. It has been very tough for the both of us. She shows her emotions different then I show mine. But the fact that it is just me and her now and on Christmas morning we will wake up and it will just be us 2, I think will be hard. For the past 13 years we have celebrated Christmas with my husband, his two stepchildren, and his parents who come in from Chicago to spend about a week with us. (We live in Louisiana) I’m still having a hard time trying to move forward and decide what to do now with my life. My husband was in the tourney and he made very good money and I did not have to work. Now I’m in the process of trying to find a job, but being unemployed for the past 10 years, has turned out to be pretty difficult to find a job. I do have a degree in ecology, but I just have never utilized it. I am 36 years old and and I am now a single mom. I don’t think I will ever get married again, if I do get involved in a relationship, I don’t think I will move in with that person and they will not be moving in with me. But this is just my mind state as of now, maybe because the death of my husband is still so new to me.
Widows need support. No matter what your age. After The loss of a spouse life can be very lonely. Although I have a 13-year-old our daughter, life is still very different and I feel very alone in my home Which is partially my fault because I isolate. I am 36 years old, and it is very hard to find people in my community that can relate to being a widow at such young age