When someone you love dies, you don't lose them all at once.
You lose them little by little.
Breathe by breathe.
Fragment by fragment.
You lose them hour by hour. Minute by minute. Month by month. Year by lengthy year.
It doesn't happen all at once.
It doesn't ever NOT happen.
Pieces of that person, that life, fall away as time goes by.
Sometimes you don't notice it all at once,
and other times,
it hits you through the skull like an ice-pick,
chopping away at your heart.
When someone you love dies,
they don't die in one moment.
They die all the time,
over and over again,