Kelley Lynn commented on Coffee with Missing Pieces 2018-03-16 09:04:38 -0700Oh man, I totally wish I could hug you in a creepy manner right now, and call you mommy LOL. I don’t know what its like to lose your mom so young in life, or to go through adulthood without your mom or dad – I don’t know what that is – but your beautiful and honest writings about it, have certainly helped me to better understand that feeling of nervousness , of feeling ungrounded. I DO understand so well about hearing a word, such as “mom”, in normal conversation, and having it just wound you, and shine a light on the thing you will never have. I love you, mommy – and I think youre a courageous person. I so wish I could see you next week, and I know that you are wishing that too. xoxo
Kelley Lynn commented on Maturity Rising 2018-03-16 08:56:19 -0700I love everything about this Mike. You are a good day. You are letting your daughter grow up to be a person with her own thoughts and feelings, while allowing her to ask the sometimes hard or unanswerable questions, that might surely come up.
Kelley Lynn commented on Its Your Birthday, My Heart and Back Know 2018-03-16 08:48:57 -0700INDIE – I am sorry you haven’t found that door yet, the one that will make you feel as if you aren’t just simply existing – but actually living again. I can only tell you it took me 6 years to find that feeling, and still now, its very hard some days. I fight for my joy everyday. Its never easy. I hope you wont give up on yourself. When youre exhausted, take breaks. Take emotional breaks to zone out, think about something else, see a funny movie. Then come back to it when you can handle it more. You can reach out to me anytime also. Here. On Facebook, or at my email email@example.com For real. Please don’t give up.
Kelley Lynn commented on Home & The Heart 2018-03-16 08:30:08 -0700Finally have somet ime to catchup on blogs. Love this. And I wish that Don could read it, as crazy as that sounds. He and you have so much in common, and he never stopped missing Florida.
Kelley Lynn commented on Half Life 2018-03-16 08:24:32 -0700Finally have time to sit and read through some of these blogs. I like this one. ANd I get it. I relate. Also, what exactly would a tragic mayonnaise accident look like? Never mind. I don’t want to know.
Kelley Lynn commented on 100% Chance of Rain 2018-02-23 06:23:41 -0800Love this . Ben feeling similar lately. Im 46 – the same age Don was when he suddenly died with no symptoms. Im petrified I wont make it to 47, and I hate even talking about it . Ugh. And like you, I resent it. xoxo
Kelley Lynn commented on Number Eleven 2018-02-23 06:20:05 -0800THis is really beautiful and bittersweet, sounds like you did an amazing job at not being an embarassing dad lol
Kelley Lynn commented on Flowers, Cake, and Change 2018-01-21 20:16:56 -0800thank you carol. Your words are very kind xoxo
Kelley Lynn commented on The End is Lurking 2018-02-26 13:08:00 -0800I think that all the time. “does he know that he died?” ugh.
Kelley Lynn commented on Happy Birthday to Michele, just one L ... 2017-12-30 16:33:51 -0800Kim, Im so sorry. Try to breathe. Hang on. And I will for sure give you a big hug in March.
Thank you Candace and Staci. I believe this too, that we all have this bit of magic in us.
Kelley Lynn commented on The Obnoxious Holiday Letter 2017-12-29 12:27:51 -0800Carolyn I would love to see one of those letters if you can find it!!!! Darren sounds awesome!!!
HAHA Cathy it will soon be time for my valentines video again lol.
Kelley Lynn commented on Have a Friggin Holly Jolly Christmas 2017-12-22 09:31:33 -0800thats what I tell myself often, when I dont want to do something or when it sucks. That at least I have the honor of being ABLE to do x thing, and all Don gets to do is keep being dead. As silly as it sounds, it does help me out of my rut some. :)
Kelley Lynn commented on Wherever You Are, It's Okay 2017-12-16 07:47:29 -0800THank you Grace …. I am definitely enjoying it … I feel like ALL my emotions are amped up lately…. at full blast… happy, sad, all of it …. its at full volume…
Kelley Lynn commented on Through the Roof 2017-12-10 08:42:17 -0800thank you Linda. I appreciate your kind words.
*Normally I write on Fridays, and although this post will appear here on Friday, I am writing it Wednesday evening, and setting it to publish Friday. This way I dont have to worry about finding a computer to post the blog while at the Marriott and busy with other things.
I hate my anxiety.
I hate that my husband died,
while I was asleep,
and he had just left for work.
I hate that a ringing phone,
in the early morning hours,
will forever make me panicky,
and give me that feeling,
of knives sitting in my throat.
I hate that he just disappeared,
from my life.
He wasn't sick.
He wasn't ever sick.
just like that,
he was gone.
I hate that I was sleeping,
while my husband was collapsing,
on a floor,
inside a store,
I have gone through the necessary therapy,
processing through these emotions,
letting them shift to somewhere different,
and it has helped,
I will always, always
feel a sense of helplessness,
and unbelievable terror,
when its morning-time,
and I haven't heard from my love.Read more