because I really do want to know,
will there ever be a time,
when something goes wrong in my life,
when a relationship ends,
or someone else breaks my heart,
or I lose a job opportunity,
or something happens with my health,
or I continue to struggle financially,
or my parents get sick,
or my kitties die,
ANY ENDLESS NUMBER OF THINGS ........
During those battles in life,
in those moments of hardship,
will there EVER be a time,
when I DON'T automatically think,
or scream into the void of nothing,
"WHY THE F**K ARENT YOU HERE????"
Will that ever happen?
Will I ever just be able to see a hardship,
for a hardship,
and not trace it backwards,
all the way to your death?
If someone could tell me this,
Id really like to know.