It’s been a long time since I cried for three straight hours. I forgot how many rolls of toilet paper I can go through per hour. (Yes, I use toilet paper instead of Kleenex. TP is more efficient, less messy and much cheaper. When you are clocking nose blows at between 2 to 3 RPH – rolls per hour - cost matters.) I also forgot how bad the headaches can be.
Last night was all about saying goodbye yet again. Today at 4PM I finally hand the house keys to another person so last night some friends and I enjoyed one last hurrah at the house Maggie and I planned to live in for the rest of our lives. The phrase of the evening was “final paragraph of a chapter” followed by other phrases like “long, amazing story” and “exciting adventure.” Many memories were stirred up and stories were told. It was a wonderful gathering.
The house Maggie and I shared is so, so rich with legends, most of which involve wild parties, alcohol and ridiculous number of cars filling up the cul de sac we lived on. Other legends entail demonstrations of devotion, hope and love. A comparative few are stories of difficulty and sadness, but those thankfully are far outweighed by powerfully positive stories. That house has a positive karma energy buffer strong enough to withstand years of a love drought (although I hope that the new homeowners keep making positive karma deposits by building a fantastic life while living there.)
My new life with my new job and new condo downtown has kept me so incredibly busy that I’ve not had the opportunity to sit and reflect on the enormous changes that have happened. Maybe that’s a good thing. I often chided Maggie about a lack of pre-decision reflection. That girl was always a ready-fire-aim kind of gal. Somehow, despite the lack of reflection and premeditation, she sure managed to get a lot done in her short life including steal my heart. Maybe a little more fire and a little less aim would do me good. Actually, now that I’ve thought about it, I don’t really have time to sit here ponder. I have a lot of wonderful things I’ve got to git to gittin' done.